I'm staring at this empty space.
My intention was to touch on a certain topic about nice people.
Not just the usual 'what I'm doing with my boring life'...
But here I am.
Clueless on what to type.

Today I've come to realize.
That maybe things weren't as bad as I thought it was.
Maybe my mindset is slowly changing.
(And NO, I'm not deceiving myself!)

Maybe if I opened my eyes.
And not be so judgemental.
I'd realize that there is so much more to a person.
My heart couldn't help but soften.
It brought this tiny smile to my heart.
It's like the time when you start thinking maybe everything's about to change.
It just feels good.

On the other hand.
Some things just don't change.
Some thoughts still remains the same.

It is annoying when things happen yet you find youself in a position where you just can't do anything.
It's not because you have tried your best and realize there's nothing you can do.
But it's more like.
Your options have all ran out.
You tried what you think will work, but it doesn't.
In the end, you have no options.

The only thing you have left is all the question marks.
And the last option to be known as harsh but straightforward.
Yet, to maintain the peace in life, we tend to forgo that option.
And that's when you feel like there's nothing within your control anymore.

This is when you wish everyone would stop lying.
To stop saying it looks good when it's actually bad.
To stop saying everything is going to be fine when you know it's not.
To stop saying everything is going to turn out just fine when nobody knows whether it will..

I look back to feel that everything has been a lie.
When will things turn out to be the way I wish it can be?

Labels: changes.

Ran @ 11:50 PM