Date: 17 April 2009, Friday

Today I went to school to do the OIP video thingy.
My group met up at 1.30pm.
And we did until 3.30pm.
Something unfortunate happened to me...
Something about my shoes that I can't be bothered to explain any further.
HAHAHAHA!

Rushed over to Century Square after that for my hair appointment.
All I did was to layer my hair.
And I'll have to let my hair grow some more so I will know if I should soft bond my hair again...
SIGHHHHH!!!!
I NEED $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ BADLY.
How random.

Met up with Samuel, Chin Hui and Jacky today.
And together we helped celebrate Samuel's birthday.
We had dinner over at a HK cafe at Katong.
Over dinner...
We chatted a lot.
About the past.
Our secondary school days.
And it made me wish more that I could go back to those good old times.

Today...
I realized a lot of stuff.
How much I have grown.
I felt emotions I never felt before.

I realize I don't want to love anymore.
I'm tired of loving someone.
I'm tired of always putting you before myself.
I'm tired of doing things because you want to do it.
I'm tired of seeing myself getting hurt time and again for something so small.
I want to stop myself from destruction.

I think this has to stop.
Somehow. Someday. Sometime.
I wish you could see that in front of you stands me.
I wish you knew I exist somewhere.
I wish you could see me.
I wish you knew.

Because...
I miss everything.

PS: my shift key isn't working. Life sucks. My laptop chooses to fail me.

<3 meiyun